Goodnight :**

Hey gorgeous! I can’t sleep I’m sorry I lied when I told you I’m off to bed, I am thinking of you. I feel like I have reached the limit of showing my love for you in words. Suddenly, even me I think am not enough for you. I mean, I just can’t accept how you’re so good of showing your love for me. I can feel it in everything you do. Even from covering me a blanket, idk! Can you feel that in me?? … am i still enough? or are you feeling a bit scarce of me?? Please tell me if you feel like I don't love you. i wish to know. I love you so much with all my life up to the afterlife.

I fear of losing you.
I love you ♥
sweetest dreams ♥

My Friday Ingredients ♥

Days are a bit out of tune lately. Depression and anxiety hits me hard this time. Thanks to my therapist Chris who perform his own version of cure for my unknown cause of tiredness and loneliness. :)

Warm Hugs

Comforting Kisses

3 Movies

1 Snack

1 game of Scrabble

Endless Chit chat

1 anime Story telling

Loads of food

Oodles of Love ♥

Ikaw lang ang nagpapasaya sakin ♥

Hi daa. :)

Pasenxa ka na hindi ko na-update agad tong dear daddy. Nitong mga nakaraang araw mejo napapagod na ko sa buhay ko. Mahirap ipaliwanag. hehe. Pero hayaan mo na. ayaw kitang idamay sa kabaliwan ko. Mahal na mahal kita at siguro kung wala ka sobrang wasted na nitong buhay ko. I am starting to hate my life. ewan! Siguro bored lang ako kaya ganito. Iyak nga ko ng iyak kanina sa sobrang bigat ng pakiramdam ko. Ayoko makaramdam ng kalungkutan o kahit anong negatobong emosyon kasi nagsasama sama lahat. Tapos bigla ko sumsasabog naiiyak na lang bigla. Galit nag alit ako kanina. Inaway ko nga si God e. Sabi o hindi sya totoo kasi kung totoo sya bakit hindi nya ko tinutulungan. Sabi ko hindi na ko ulit magdadasal kahit kelan pero ayun. Kinain ko naman lahat ng sinabi ko. Mababaliw na ata ako ee. hehe. ^^

Wag ka magalala sakin. gagaling din ako. :) Mahal na mahal kita. ikaw lang lagi ang iniisip ko, ikaw lang ang mahal ko. Ikaw lang ang nakakapagpasaya sakin araw araw. ^^ Kung mangchichics ka wag muna ngayon ah.. Hindi pa kakayanin ng puso ko yon sa ngayon. :)

Magiingat ka lagi mahal ko. :”>

Happy first anniversary!! :">

Happy Anniversary!! ♥

You’re the happiest living decision I have ever made. I never regret, or ever will, choosing you to be part of my life. Just like how this maxim says, ‘You can't live your life for other people. You've got to do what's right for you, even if it hurts some people you love.’  Nobody was hurt on my part but we both know that a person was hurt by our love, and for a year I felt so sorry for myself I hurt her. But then, love is also a sacrifice entwined with choosing. I don’t want to go back on our and your struggle in this letter. Yet, I want to reminisce how God proved to me again his existence. This is the day to celebrate how our love was born. :)

I am done reading Nicholas Sparks’ The Notebook and its impact on my love for you is intense. You’re like Noah. ♥ He reminds me of you so much I cried hard upon reading the last quarter of the book. His love for Allie reminds me of your love for me. That is how much you love me daa or even more. It made me cry because never in my life that I have met someone with the love like of yours. So pure. So selfless. And for once in my life I feared a disease. Alzheimer’s. It is a barren disease, as empty and lifeless as a desert. It is a thief of hearts and souls and memories. I don’t want to forget you. I want to show you love just like how you show me yours. I don’t want to forget because I don’t want to hurt you. Because I know if fate decides to confine this disease on me you will take care of me to your last breath. Right then, I will hurt you every day. And no matter how much you remind yourself I love you, this will not comfort you, for my actions speaks in contrast. I love you and like Allie, no matter how dysfunctional her brain was, my heart will always speak of you, will never forget you, and will only beat for you.

Chris, thank you for sharing every piece of you with me. :) I thought someone like you only exist in books. I am very thankful I found one! A love so real. Fate gave me one. ♥

I am so sorry my letter’s a bit late. :) I had second thoughts of handwriting this letter, but you see mine’s drastic. Ugh. I really envy your ex’ penmanship. ;) I kinda’ miss her. She’s really something. :) And don’t ever, ever, EVER be with her without giving me prior notice. K? PRIOR? OKAY? NO BUTS! I love you!:”>

Let’s be together.
Grow together
Travel together
Sleep together
Laugh together
Have ups and downs together
Have family together
Work hard together
Raise our children together
Celebrate Christmas together
Retire together
Watch sunset together
Ooops.. I die first. :)
You follow me next. ^^
And be inlove with each other
forever ♥♥♥

To infinity and beyond!!
kwekwen ♥

thank you for loving me this deeply. ♥ I love you too :**

Ngayon lang ako nakakilala ng taong kagaya mo. :) Kayang ibigay lahat para sakin maging masaya lang ako. May tao palang kagaya mo. ^^ favorite talaga ko ni God e.! :">

Eto na talaga ung kanta ko para sayo. :)

If the sun refuse to shine
I will shine for you
You're the star the paints the sky
i'll be watching you

i seen my world in your direction
i will go with good intentions with you

Cause i'm waiting, i'm waiting for you
Until the night is through

If this place becomes too cold
I will cover you
You're the wind that turns my world
I won't fail for you

I seen my world in your direction
i will go with good intentions with you

Cause i'm waiting, i'm waiting for you
Until the night is through

Now it's okay to feel me
It's just you and me now all alone

Cause i'm waiting, i'm waiting for you
Until the night is through


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daa. kapag hindi lumabas ung video
dito mo na lang panoorin
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rXzrV4SQNmA
hehe
ILOVEYOU

forever yours,
kwekwen ♥

I know I am hard on you sometimes.
I even make you feel I do not care.
But you know what?
I always believed in change.
It always proved to me its existence.
I’ve seen it to my mom,
to my dad,
and
I’ve also seen it to myself.

I believe in myself.
I believe in you.
I believe that no matter how flawed our temperament is, we can always change it for what’s best to us, for the two of us, for our relationship.

Forever is a long-run
And I will be prepared
And I will love you that long
Until the crab learns to fly..